For the voters, the power to choose is often not that simple as political alignments sometimes come with tangiable economic or material benefits and political ideology is tainted by memories of unrest and corruption from all sides.
In the rural communities where we work, powerlessness rises to a new level. Small scale farmers are powerless to do anything as torrential rain destroys their harvest. Those with no land of their own are at the mercy of large land owners to rent them plots on rolling six month contracts. Many wait on government officials or others like San Lucas for help to build latrines, secure safe water supplies, repair apalling roads or provide adequate roofing materials. Poverty, lack of education, lack of access to healthcare and other servies coupled with a difficult natural environment mean that the potential for people to help themselves and move forward is stinted.
I have also been exploring the reality of domestic violence here in Nicaragua. According to one study 48% of women have been the victim of some sort of verbal or psychological abuse and 27% have suffered physical abuse. 69 women have died so far in 2010 at the hands of the partner or ex-partner. San Lucas is trying to open up discussion and provide education on this subject for community leaders. It's a really difficult problem to tackle as attitudes and patterns of behaviour are engrained at a national level. I have come to understand that abuse or maltreatment is always about power and control; power of the strong over the weak in a cycle that constantly reinforces this contrast. The issue really hit home when I discovered that one of my Nica friends is living in an abusive relationship. It has been good to be able to talk with her about this but when self-confidence is so beaten down acting decisively against the violence is difficult. In some ways I also feel powerless to help.
Over the past month or so I have come to understand a little more of the feeling of powerlessness; when plunged into a new culture, with a language that you haven't fully mastered and a whole set of unwritten rules that you don't yet understand, you can feel completely at the mercy of others. It is hard to not to be able to contribute as much as you wish to, to express yourself accurately or to acheive measurable goals.
In all this I am reminded of a passage that stuck out for me before setting off for Nicaragua:
2 Chronicles 14:11 'Then Asa called to the LORD his God and said, "LORD, there is no one like you to help the powerless against the mighty. Help us, O LORD our God, for we rely on you, and in your name we have come against this vast army. O LORD, you are our God; do not let man prevail against you." 'We know that God uses us in our weakness, when we have no option but to call on him as our strength. It is also good to be reminded that we, as humans, are ultimately not in control. So I will continue to pray for Nicaragua and powerlessness that I see here, and that even though it might be hard to evaluate, that I might be used amongst it.
